by chesya » Wed Mar 14, 2018 10:04 pm
I am very passionate and enjoy most of the things about life intensely, but have a very low sex drive, further curtailed by meds. I seek domination and submission and in the past I have driven others wild with sexual frenzy while I was unable to reciprocate to the same level and gained a reputation as a 'taker' or someone who fucks others around - although this in itself sometimes drives people wild and creates a viscous or virtuous circle depending on POV. Really they are projecting there own sexual desire and frustration onto me. Once I understood this I stopped feeling guilty and began to enjoy it as long as I knew I wasn't really fucking someone or myself up (somewhat risky). These situations form the underlying structure of my fantasies about a captive SW or SWs. I enjoy the idea of total control through the SWs own desires and feelings of being overwhelmed and dominated.
I can also be very gentle and kind in a gracile, feminine way. As a very young man I could easily switch genders in appearance. A woman with whom I was very much in love (boot on other foot on this occasion), but couldn't reciprocate said she couldn't yield to me because I was like a woman in a man's body. I very much wanted to protect her from her own terrible taste in men who used to hurt her with rough sex and sometimes domestic violence. Similar observations were made frequently when I was younger and less obviously masculine. I am not at all gender dysphoric, but there is something deeply feminine about me. In my drawings, normal-sized women do the 'heavy-lifting' with SWs.
I am very passionate and enjoy most of the things about life intensely, but have a very low sex drive, further curtailed by meds. I seek domination and submission and in the past I have driven others wild with sexual frenzy while I was unable to reciprocate to the same level and gained a reputation as a 'taker' or someone who fucks others around - although this in itself sometimes drives people wild and creates a viscous or virtuous circle depending on POV. Really they are projecting there own sexual desire and frustration onto me. Once I understood this I stopped feeling guilty and began to enjoy it as long as I knew I wasn't really fucking someone or myself up (somewhat risky). These situations form the underlying structure of my fantasies about a captive SW or SWs. I enjoy the idea of total control through the SWs own desires and feelings of being overwhelmed and dominated.
I can also be very gentle and kind in a gracile, feminine way. As a very young man I could easily switch genders in appearance. A woman with whom I was very much in love (boot on other foot on this occasion), but couldn't reciprocate said she couldn't yield to me because I was like a woman in a man's body. I very much wanted to protect her from her own terrible taste in men who used to hurt her with rough sex and sometimes domestic violence. Similar observations were made frequently when I was younger and less obviously masculine. I am not at all gender dysphoric, but there is something deeply feminine about me. In my drawings, normal-sized women do the 'heavy-lifting' with SWs.