by jitensha » Mon Aug 03, 2020 3:44 am
Oofff I've had a lot of emotional breakdowns. I was supposed to move late April, early May to finally start my family with my husband in Japan. Obviously that never happened because everything shutdown, including whole countries.
I've lived in Japan before (and he grew up there), and so we had been eagerly planning this move for almost 2 years. Back in March when things started locking down, I was still living in my apartment in Queens, walking distance from the notorious Elmhurst hospital. I experienced probably the worst panic attacks of my life, not only because my life was now on hold until god knows when, but I had lost my job and Sergio's salary was cut. We were living in a very tiny apartment, no backyard/green areas, and social distancing in NYC was almost close to impossible. It's a very pedestrian heavy city, so getting around even to go to the market was horrifying when you're bumping into people and you know 1,000 lives are being lost a day to this virus. My best friend lost his Father to covid. A size kinkster friend of mine who lived out in NJ lost his mother to it as well. It was very real, and very scary for me. I knew I probably wouldn't be finding a job anytime soon in NYC, so unfortunately we decided to move away from NYC temporarily so we wouldn't drain the little savings we had for our Japan move. When it was safe enough to leave NYC around early July, my husband and I quarantined at a hotel for 2 weeks after our flight, and moved in finally with my parents....in Miami Florida. My mom calls me the virus chaser LOL.
Despite the renewed craziness around me again, I'm thankfully much better now. My parent's backyard is a godsent. Having space is amazing. I'm still a bit depressed about everything, smoking up a storm pretty much daily because I had to put my family plans on hold. I really want to be a mother, but I also don't want to be doing a million checkups at doctors offices or hospitals during this crisis. I also very much love my parents, and so grateful that I still have them around, but holy hell do I hate living with them lol. Hopefully there will be a vaccine soon. I hope y'all are staying safe!
Oofff I've had a lot of emotional breakdowns. I was supposed to move late April, early May to finally start my family with my husband in Japan. Obviously that never happened because everything shutdown, including whole countries. :? I've lived in Japan before (and he grew up there), and so we had been eagerly planning this move for almost 2 years. Back in March when things started locking down, I was still living in my apartment in Queens, walking distance from the notorious Elmhurst hospital. I experienced probably the worst panic attacks of my life, not only because my life was now on hold until god knows when, but I had lost my job and Sergio's salary was cut. We were living in a very tiny apartment, no backyard/green areas, and social distancing in NYC was almost close to impossible. It's a very pedestrian heavy city, so getting around even to go to the market was horrifying when you're bumping into people and you know 1,000 lives are being lost a day to this virus. My best friend lost his Father to covid. A size kinkster friend of mine who lived out in NJ lost his mother to it as well. It was very real, and very scary for me. I knew I probably wouldn't be finding a job anytime soon in NYC, so unfortunately we decided to move away from NYC temporarily so we wouldn't drain the little savings we had for our Japan move. When it was safe enough to leave NYC around early July, my husband and I quarantined at a hotel for 2 weeks after our flight, and moved in finally with my parents....in Miami Florida. My mom calls me the virus chaser LOL.
Despite the renewed craziness around me again, I'm thankfully much better now. My parent's backyard is a godsent. Having space is amazing. I'm still a bit depressed about everything, smoking up a storm pretty much daily because I had to put my family plans on hold. I really want to be a mother, but I also don't want to be doing a million checkups at doctors offices or hospitals during this crisis. I also very much love my parents, and so grateful that I still have them around, but holy hell do I hate living with them lol. Hopefully there will be a vaccine soon. I hope y'all are staying safe! :)