miss-lillipants wrote: ↑Sat Feb 25, 2023 9:04 am
A very welcome back to these 2 :)
Awww, thank you so much!!
Chapter 9
I sit there on the bed, cross-legged, feeling exceedingly nervous and excited all at once. I had never allowed myself to think we might ever try this again. I hadn’t considered that my random daydreams remembering what it was like to be miniature would ever translate to this. It hits me in a way that I haven’t thought about in a while… this technology is insane. The way we're about to manipulate the laws of physics is
insane.
"I'll plug things in ahead of time so that there's no surprises." Leo is sounding a bit more exuberant at this point. "Have I ever shown you how this works? Here, this is where you can input the height."
I haven't really watched the screen so closely before, and it feels good to be part of the process now, even if I don't have the right fingerprints to operate the machine myself. He inputs 5’1” into the target height. A single inch shorter… That’s not so scary. It would make almost no difference to me even if it was something permanent. Nice and easy. He hovers his thumb over the round input button and looks up at me for approval.
“Go ahead,” I say before my teeth clench up and my chest tightens.
His thumb presses down and the influx of warmth is immediate. It passes through me like a wave - skin tingling, head slightly dizzy - and then it’s gone.
I blink up at my boyfriend sitting beside me. “Can you tell?”
He puts a hand on top of my head, partly to get a sense of my height and partly to give me a comforting pat. “I think so? It’s very subtle. Feel okay?”
“Yeah.” I nod, and it feels so nice to be telling the truth. The shrinking process itself isn’t particularly pleasant as it’s pretty disorienting. But it really makes such a difference having this be on my terms. “Yeah that wasn’t bad. I think I can do more.”
Leo grins. “I never thought I’d see the day when you genuinely mean that. Darn, now I can’t tease you about wanting to be smaller if you
actually want to be smaller.”
“I’m sure you’ll find a way to carry on,” I scoff, rolling my eyes.
He kisses me on the cheek and I can sense how excited he feels, like electricity against my skin. “So what do you think, short stuff? How much more should I shave off then?”
I ponder this for a moment. It would make sense to take this bit by bit, maybe just take a foot off now, then later spend some time at only half my height and call it a day. But something about that doesn’t feel right. I realize that I’m yearning for something very, very specific.
“Honestly…” I say slowly, “I… I miss my old normal.”
Leo takes this in, concern crawling back onto his face. “That’s… Don’t you think that’s a bit much, love? I figured you’d want to take it slow.”
I shrug, feeling embarrassed for some reason as I look off to the side. “Maybe. Would you not want that yet?”
“
I’m fine,” he assures me, “But it's-”
“Then let’s try it,” I interrupt, looking back up at him with a shy smile. “I just really want to know how I feel if I go back. I’m going to be constantly wondering about it otherwise… I just want to see.”
He stares at me for a couple of beats before he nods. “I can stop it and restore you at any point, okay?”
“Thank you.” I give him a wider smile and he returns it in spades.
“Here, let me give you some space,” he says, sliding off of the bed. He starts out standing, then reconsiders and kneels down on the floor instead, presumably so that he won’t tower over me menacingly once I’m smaller. I can’t help but laugh and feel a wave of love for him as I’m now looking down at him from my perch. He’s actually being thoughtful and considerate of my experience this time. It's kind of fun.
He fiddles with the device and then holds up the screen for me to see the target size: 3”. We exchange one last significant look, his eyes silently asking me “you're sure?” and mine answering with a “yes.” Leo presses the button.
Down I go. Oh god, this is happening. The warmth is a bit more intense this time and the dizziness makes me waver in place so I’m glad I’m sitting down. The surface of the blanket starts shifting under and around me and my eyes widen as I watch the walls and ceiling begin to stretch away. The falling feeling is more intense than I was expecting and my breath catches in my throat.
Crap… Did I overestimate what I was capable of? I hold steady, looking to Leo as I reach child-size. He’s watching me intently, already appearing incredibly tall despite his eye level still being below mine. The sight of him helps ground me to a certain extent, even though watching him get bigger and bigger is overwhelming in its own right.
This is so strange. I was once more accustomed to him being a giant. Now I’ve gotten used to him being a regular person again. I can’t quite bridge the gap in my brain as I watch him transform past the size of a normal human, until he’s more like a living statue, taking up greater and greater space as his form completely eclipses mine. Soon I’m no bigger than his head, and then our eye contact is level for just a moment before I’m looking
up at him as I slowly sink into the bedsheets…
Neither one of us knows how we should be reacting. His eyes are fixated on me, lips slightly parted with apprehension as he tries to figure out how I’m doing, waiting for any kind of signal that he should stop this. At the same time, he’s starting to look a little overtaken with a different emotion, color softly blooming into his cheeks as he watches me dwindle before him.
Meanwhile, a sense of panic is rising up in me, the feeling of being like prey in a space that’s too wide and open and only getting more vast with every second. Yeah, I may really have overestimated myself here. Everything is getting too gigantic, it’s been too long, it’s become too unfamiliar—
And then it all becomes still. I sit on the hilly landscape of the bed, back in an alien world that I thought I’d left forever, facing an impossibly huge person.
Completely at his mercy.
“Too much, love?”
Leo speaks softly but it still makes me jump. That’s right, everything’s so much louder down here. Shit. I’m trembling at this point. Even his subtle movements - his mouth forming words, the blink of his eyelids, the way he’s leaning in slightly - overwhelm me for a second.
“Lily? Should I change you back?”
My breathing is shallow and I can't quite get myself to speak. The giant’s brow is furrowing now and I see out of my periphery that he’s lifting the device up again, taking my silence as a bad sign and trying to rectify this quickly.
“Wait,” I manage to choke out.
He pauses, mouth drawing into a thin line as he looks back up at me, muscles tensed. I clench my hands into fists in my lap. Close my eyes for a second and breathe in slowly. Open them again. Fuck, he’s so big...
Deep breaths.
Leo gives me a tentative little smile. Another deep breath and I manage a weak smile back. I try to remind myself that I’m safe. I can have this reversed at any moment. I know I can trust the massive creature in front of me. I want to hang in there just a little longer.
Gradually my heart rate slows down. My body is starting to remember this, my brain is quickly drawing connections. I had spent so much time at this size before. It was a different life but things are coming back now. What it’s like to have quiet ambient noise now echoing in the distance. The feeling of thicker threads anytime I’m sitting on fabric. The wide, empty space all around me. My memories are starting to link up with my current reality.
The giant waits patiently, gazing at my reduced form on his bed as I calm down. As worried as he looks, I can tell that he’s quietly adoring the sight and is actively keeping himself in check. I finally break the silence.
“I’m getting there... You were right, this was probably too much, but… I think I’m okay?” I’m noticing a peculiar expression on Leo’s face as I’m talking and realize he’s straining to hear me. Another thing I needed to remind myself of, I have to speak up now. “I’m okay,” I repeat, louder this time.
He gives me the smallest nod, clearly trying not to make any sudden movements. His next exhale is a quiet sigh. “You’re amazing, love. Take your time… God, you’re so adorable.”
During my little freak out I’d been curling in on myself protectively, and I begin stretching out again and get a better sense of the space around me. I attempt to get to my feet, testing out my wobbly legs, and it’s actually the softness of the blanket that nearly gets the best of me - I almost fall over as I sink a little deeper than I expected. Leo flinches as he sees this but holds himself back and I maintain my balance.
“I’m out of practice!” I exclaim, and I manage a small laugh. “If this is going to be a regular thing I need my old gym back.”
My giant partner beams at this. “I kept most of it,” he says as I take a few hesitant steps on the bed, “Maybe I can make new stuff this time. Fear not, I still have the hamster wheel.”
I glare up at him and he chuckles. I notice that he seems to be having a hard time keeping still, as much as he’s really trying to. Meanwhile I feel like I’m getting the hang of the soft floor I’m on, getting more comfortable as I walk around.
Leo bites his lip as he watches me. “Can I… touch you?” he finally asks.
I stand in place, turning towards him. I do feel slightly nervous about how excited he looks, but it’s not enough to dampen my feelings for him. And this is honestly what I was looking forward to. Instead of answering, I open my arms out towards him as if asking for a hug.
His movements are slow, still restrained, as his hand appears up over the horizon of the mattress and he carefully starts sliding it towards me. My body reflexively tenses up at something so large approaching me since even just his hand is as long as a U-Haul, his fingers now as big as his whole body was a couple of minutes ago. But this is one of the most familiar sights of all, him reaching for me like this. And despite any fear, I want this so desperately.
His hand sidles up beside me, fingers curling around behind my small form. Ever so gently, his forefinger brushes up against the back of my head, middle finger touching me between the shoulder blades. The warm familiarity of them makes me sigh and I lean into him. I bring my attention back up to his eyes, which are even bigger now as Leo’s shifting closer to the bed, and I can see the flecks of gold in them so clearly now against the chocolate brown of his irises. I smile at him, reach a hand out to the side to touch his nearby palm, and the feeling of my tiny fingers against his skin makes his breath catch in his throat.
Our next movement feels so natural and practiced that it’s as if no time has passed at all. I push myself up onto his fingers, silently requesting for him to pick me up, and he moves against me in turn, scooping my little body up with ease. He carefully lifts me off the bed and he’s having trouble moving slowly now as he raises me higher, bringing me up to his face. The vertigo and the size of him is overwhelming and my heart is racing but I don’t care as I press myself into his cheek, finding my little nook up alongside his nose, and we revel in this embrace, this wonderful hug of mismatched scale. I’ve missed this feeling so much. And so has he, from what I can tell.
I start planting little kisses on his skin and Leo chuckles, practically squeeing in response. “I love you I love you I love you,” he gushes, and he shifts to give me a careful but passionate kiss on the side of the head before pulling his hand away and examining me avidly. “Christ, I didn’t realize just how much I missed this. Are you sure you’re doing alright, hon?”
“Yeah. Well, admittedly, I'm a little freaked out still…” I tentatively push myself to my feet on his palm, arms outstretched as I continue to get my bearings. “I guess I kinda jumped into the deep end. But I think I've got this.”
I try walking back and forth on his hand, which he flattens out for me. He's grinning in delight and holds it as still as he can, although I'm quickly remembering that movement is almost constant when being held like this.
"You're so light," he coos, "I keep worrying I'm going to knock you over…" I glance up apprehensively and crouch down in the middle of his palm in reaction to him saying that, making him laugh. "Don't worry, I'm being really careful. You're safe with me, little one."
I believe him. I notice his other hand is hovering nearby, cupping the space near me protectively in case I fall off - a reflex that has apparently stuck. We spend the next minute or so in relative quiet, taking each other in, me tracing the lines of his hand with fascination, him gently lifting and lowering me, trying to get his movements smoother.
"It's crazy that this used to be an all-the-time thing," I muse, glancing around the cavernous room, "How did we even function…"
"Oh, I remember," Leo murmurs and he brings up a finger to softly run it up the length of my arm, "I'd be able to slip back into that nooo problem."
I giggle as he reaches my neck and it tickles. I take hold of the digit, giving it an affectionate squeeze. "Yes, I'm sure you're quite disappointed that this is temporary."
"Mmm, I don't know… Maybe you've just made a
terrible mistake, my love…"
The threat is obviously a jest but it makes my entire body tense up. I glance up at him with fear, clutching his finger tightly. The dreamy look on his face suddenly vanishes as he snaps out of his reverie and realizes what he just said.
"Sorry. Bad joke. Too soon."
"Uh huh," I say a little weakly, trying to relax again. "Definitely might… need more time."
"Yup, yup, that was my bad. I’m sorry, Lily… Did I lose my giant privileges? Device is right here whenever you're ready."
I release his finger but tap it reassuringly, even though I still feel a little shaky. "No, it's okay. I know you're just teasing, I'll loosen up eventually… It's just…"
I pause for a moment. Leo looks nervous as he tries to read my expression. He's no longer idly touching me, as if wanting to make extra sure I'm not feeling demeaned after his blunder, and he’s slowly lowering his hand down to rest it back on the bed. I think he wants to give me the option to get off if I want to, but I stay put on his palm and instead try to give him a reassuring smile to let him know he’s not in trouble.
"...I guess I'm trying to figure out what all this means for us," I finally say.
"Ah. Well…" It’s his turn to pause thoughtfully now before he responds, "Just for the record. I wouldn't actually suggest keeping you like this all the time. Even if that's what you wanted for whatever reason."
I narrow my eyes at him and tilt my head to the side skeptically. "Really? Totally selfishly, you wouldn't want that?”
He shakes his head, gaze softening. "A part of me would love it, of course. It obviously
used to be what I wanted. But really, totally selfishly, I think I'd prefer the variety. Like… cuddling you and sneaking you around in public is all wonderful when you're small. But now I
also like cuddling you and bringing you out in public at your full size. You know?”
My heart rate is steady again after that little anxiety spike. As we converse, I've readjusted to a more comfortable sitting position on Leo’s hand, refocusing on how lovely and warm and intimate it is being held by him like this, the more my body gets used to its miniature scale.
"Huh. Good to know," I say, "So… this is just… something we do from time to time? Just for fun?”
My smile is a tad suggestive and I absently start touching the skin I’m perched on. The tickle is enough to make the giant shudder with pleasure.
"That sounds
fantastic to me,” he sighs, “Nothing you don't want. But if you're open to that, I… I do really love this.”
It’s not very difficult to make my boyfriend smile in our day to day, but it’s particularly easy to make him feel good in subtle ways when I’m like this, and I’m starting to get a kick out of it. I press on, though, knowing this conversation needs our attention. "Should we come up with, I don't know, rules or anything?”
At this Leo frowns in confusion. "Rule number one. You call the shots. The end.”
I frown back, sensing something here that makes me pause. "But I mean, listen. We're a couple now. We're meant to be… equal.” I readjust my position again, placing my hands in my lap as I give him a significant look. “Obviously if I'm not comfortable with something I'll say it, but I don't think I should be the
only one to have a say, right? I want to make sure I'm meeting your needs too.”
Sometimes Leo looks at me like he doesn’t think I’m real. To be fair, that makes a little more sense in this moment when I’m three inches tall. But it’s more than that. He looks incredibly touched right now. He leans his head down towards the bed, resting his chin on the edge of the mattress, not too far from where I’m at, so that he can gaze at me.
"I don't deserve you, you know that?” he says quietly.
This might be my first relationship, but I feel like what I said is really basic for a normal couple. I guess we’re carrying a little extra baggage, though. It's understandable, but at the same time I don't want him to be completely crippled by his past mistakes forever.
I stand and step off his mammoth hand, peering up at his two-story-tall face before zeroing in on his mouth. His lips dwarf my whole head but I can still reach them without issue - I march right up and kiss his upper lip, pressing my face into the soft skin before taking a couple of steps back again. I give him a very stern look.
"Leo. It took us a while to get here. But I love you. And I'm
so happy with you. And yes you've made mistakes, but you deserve happiness too. So please stop putting yourself down, alright?”
He lifts his head back off the mattress, blushing as he looks down at his tiny girlfriend on the bed sheets. With him so massive it’s easy for me to see the tears gathering up in his eyes. He quickly rubs them away with the heel of his other hand and clears his throat. “You know, I don’t remember being quite such an emotional sap before I knew you.”
“I bring out the best in people," I say brightly.
He lets out a deep sigh. "Thank you, love. Bear with me. I do still feel like I…
owe you. A lot. And I know that I'm lucky to have you. So I guess I'd rather put your needs far before mine."
"I understand. But let's not let it get toxic, okay?"
"Okay. I'll try."
His hand is still laying on the bed behind me and he slides it closer to where I’m standing, extending his forefinger tentatively. I playfully rub my cheek and neck against it like I'm a cat, getting Leo's smile to return.
"So, as far as the shrinking," he says, "I'll at least promise to not spring it on you. Let's just… communicate? Maybe sometimes we plan something specific. Maybe I'll request it, and you're free to say yes or no. Maybe you'll request it… and I'll almost definitely say yes. If it's ever too much or whatever, we can discuss it at any point."
God, does it feel amazing to not have to negotiate being above a certain size or whatever else. We can just actually
talk like normal people, about everything. I appreciate how far we've come. This is how it should have been from the start, and I'm so thankful that we get a chance to rewrite our story.
"Sounds like a plan, babe," I purr, kissing his finger.
His eyebrows shoot up with sudden interest. "
Babe? That's new."
I glance up at him self consciously "I… figure I shouldn't be the only one with pet names. Hmm, I guess it sounds more natural when you do it. Should I steal yours then, love?"
"Ooooo. Say that again," Leo says with a grin, leaning towards me.
"Or maybe darling? Schnookums? Wubby dubby pookie pants?"
He laughs as his face gets closer and closer. "Uh huh, just keep 'em coming…"
But I couldn't have gotten any more out as we're both giggling now and he's nuzzling into me, tenderly pressing his fingertips into my back to pull me in for another hug. It's a lot, there's so much of him completely surrounding me, but he's being so gentle and my joy is outweighing my nervousness as I continue to welcome these opportunities to get used to the scale of his body. I'm up against his cheek again when out of nowhere, my stomach growls. Loudly.
"Oh, jeez, I
felt that," Leo laughs, carefully pinching me on either side of my waist so that he can pull me back off his face. "Shoot, we completely forgot about dinner! I have burrito bowl stuff prepped in the fridge, just need to assemble them real quick, is that okay?"
I'm a bit embarrassed, I hadn't even noticed how hungry I was getting. But I nod eagerly. "And then we can finally start Mass Effect. Your game disc is going to feel seriously sad if we neglect it again tonight."
He nods back and reaches out of my line of sight for the shrinking device. "Okay, let's get you back up here. Right?"
For a moment I consider the idea of staying at this size for the evening. But quickly I come to the conclusion that I've already thrown a lot at myself at once when I wasn't even planning on this, and that being carried around, eating giant food and who knows what else might be a bad idea at this point.
"Yeah, I probably shouldn't overdo it," I agree, "Maybe next time we plan for a shrink-appropriate meal."
"I can't believe we're planning a next time… I'm not dreaming, am I?"
"Not unless I am."
“Whew. Alright. Say goodbye to your little fairy world for now.”
And I actually do, taking one last look around the room as the tingling sensation dashes across my skin and warmth overtakes me. As I grow again, the dwindling giant has to start looking up at me once more from his spot on the floor and he gets to his feet as I approach my full size.
“Thanks for not looking too disappointed,” I tease, squinting against the last of the dizziness as my height settles, “now that I’m not quite so cute.”
Leo leans down to take my face in his hands and kiss me fervently on the mouth. “You’re still just as gorgeous to me now, love,” he murmurs, running his thumb along my chin, “Besides…”
I yelp in surprise as suddenly he shifts his arms to my back and under my legs, easily lifting me up into a bridal carry and giving me a cocky smile.
“You’re my precious little one no matter what.”
I laugh, wrapping my arms around his neck, and snuggle into him as he carries me away to dinner, the two of us buzzing in the aftermath of all that just happened and all the possibilities that have opened up for us now.
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Aaaand that’s all I have for the moment! I have plenty more ideas for these two and their newfound relationship, so I’m pretty confident there will be future installments - especially now that the doors to consensual shrinking have opened! This just felt like a nice stopping point until I start their next little arc. 😊
In the meantime, I’ve been working away at Out of their Element part 2! Hoping to start posting it in the next few weeks~